When we two parted

WHEN WE TWO PARTED

When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.
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They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shrudder comes o'er me --
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee so well --
Long, long I shall rue thee,
Too deeply to tell.

***
There is nothing so gut-wrenching
than to be stopped in your tracks
by the sight of an ex-love enraptured by his new-found joy.

I have had the fortunate occasion only a few times in my life,
but every time it seems to take just a little more of my heart from me.

Given plenty of time to prepare myself for the inevitable (he warned me that she would be staying at the house), I was surprised at myself when at the mere sight of her sporty car in my old driveway, I was uncomfortable. She had been living with him since Tuesday, and I guess in the back of my mind, I hoped she would be gone.

I was here only to pick up my child for our usual tradeoff. Sundays. My favorite day of the week(sarcasm).

It was no surprise when I entered my old house, it was a total disaster. But what made me so distraught were the danty ladies shoes, three pair, that were lined up at the doorway. Her clothes were hanging from a doorframe, newly washed. The upstairs shower, my bathroom--my shower, was running. She was taking a shower in my bathroom.

I did my best to avoid any sort of conversation with him, but as usual, he had not prepared my daughter's bag. I had to stand and wait for him to pack it.

It was absolutely the most humiliating feeling
to stand in my old house
waiting
while someone else moved into my place
with such ease.

My heart broke just a little more today.

In other news,
I read that Andrew Bird was coming to Second Story June 4.
I used to hate it that no one ever cared what I had to say about music and artists
but I have been talking about Andrew Bird for months
and now he is coming.
A professional whistler, violinist and interesting lyricist
I would recommend him to you if you are interested in seeing a really cool artist.
(and you can thank me later.)