furies and sufferings

Quevedo-
"There are in my heart furies and sufferings."

good times:
* Rogue Wave I saw them tonight at Landlocked Music
* Red crocs--what took me so long??
*New Lily's album Everything Wrong is Imaginary
**Silly Strumming with the Devil Van Halen tribute cd--imagine JUMP on banjo!
*Teaching Lilly to swim, garden, tell jokes, etc.

*Grandma Whooie-my way of expressing anger at slow drivers while Lilly is in the car with me. We call the slow poke "Grandma Whooie" or Pokie little Puppie. The HUGEASS dump trucks are "Grandpa Whooie".
*WFHB
*Bloomington in the summer
*Kettle Chips Baked Honey Bar-b-q potato chips
*Thunderstorms

not-so-good-times:
*Ghosts from the past
*Alone on a Saturday, Friday, Sunday, Tuesday, Thurs...
*FRAT party mentality neighbors and their fucking TIKI torches--I got sumpin I can torch, you little shits...
*Lost or idle moments
*Bloomington in the summer
*TOW ZONES outside MAX's Place (goddamn mother fuckers) It was less than 20 minutes you assholes...$130 broker.
*His disappearing act AKA: Catharine's theme
*The Lonesome Loser AKA: Catharine's theme, pt. 2
*No messages
*Concerts, dinners, outings, parties--oh, no parties, family gatherings-- solo
*Diabetic Cats and putting them down...
*Being a broke ass
*WTF is wrong here?!

insomnia on the summer solstice

Everything is going wrong it's not right anymore
We can't seem to get along the way we did before
Sun is hanging in the sky sinking low and so am I
Just for the love of someone and a big red sun
How I gonna lose these big red sun blues
Big red sun big red sun big red sun blues

True love to hold is worth everything
It's worth more than gold or any diamond ring
But this little diamond and a heart that's been broken
Are all I got from you, big red sun
How I gonna lose these big red sun blues
Big red sun big red sun big red sun blues

303 am June 21. Summer Solsitce starts at 826am.
I can't sleep.

Where are you, big red sun?

dad's day

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