I'll Know

Something happens to a person
when they have been touched by something (or someone)
so amazing or horrific or profound
that they will never quite be the same again.

I've had a few encounters like these in the past few years
and have been given the last three months to reflect back on
each one with remorse, with sheer bliss, with shame, with overflowing joy, with dispair or a combination of all of those feelings
and I know that without those events (or people)
I would not be who I am today.

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I am trying to enjoy these last few days of solitude before I go back
hoping
that the person who is me shines through to everyone I meet
and others will respond in kind to me-- or with new eyes
and a new heart.
Here's to hoping...
that my strengths and talents will be noted and used for the greater good,
that connections will be made and kept,
that love will have a chance to blossom.
***
A lovesong from the show I am currently working on has been playing over in my head.
It is called "I'll Know:"

...I'll know when my loves comes along
I'll know then and there,
I'll know at the sight of her face
how I care, how I care, how I care
and I'll stop
and I'll stare,
And I'll know long before we can speak
I'll know in my heart,
I'll know and I won't ever ask,
Am I wise? Am I right? Am I smart?
But I'll stop
and I'll stare
at that face in the throng
Yes, I'll know when my love comes along.

It's going to be a great musical.