family feud

"TO SLEEP"

O soft embalmer of the still midnight,
Shutting, with careful fingers and benign,
Our gloom-pleas'd eyes, embower'd from the light,
Enshaded in forgetfulness divine:
O soothest Sleep! if it so please thee, close,
In midst of this thine hymn, my willing eyes,
Or wait the amen, ere thy poppy throws
Around my bed its lulling charities.
Then save me, or the passéd day will shine
Upon my pillow, breeding many woes;
Save me from curious conscience, that still lords
Its strength for darkness, burrowing like a mole;
Turn the key deftly in the oilèd wards,
And seal the hushèd casket of my soul.

things that are difficult:
1. exhaustion without release
2. lack of appreciation
3. being misunderstood
4. lingering nightmares
5. loving and hating others at the same time
6. holidays without Lillian
7. seeking the joie de vivre
8. not seeing my cats
9. late nights with a card table and laptop for company
10. approaching weekends spent alone