all saint's day

today is all saint's day. how apropos that i picked today to go back to church. the sermon was given by a man whom i respect and who is a thinker, a reader, a philosopher and a good man. he didn't dance around the subject of being a saint. sure, mother teresa and all that bullshit--but no. to be a saint one has to feel on a very human level. pathos. i have to link to his page and have you read it--a masterpiece.
i couldn't stay after communion; i was crying so hard i could even look up to say amen.

god, i thought it could only get better. you there, sitting at home cozy and comfortable on a thursday night have no idea the terror i experienced... and the weekend to follow.
i am broken but strong.
and i am a saint.